It’s been a season for sure, and it’s good to be back! It is vendor show season again, and the busiest time of a retail person’s year. I am thrilled to be back at it, and at shows I had to cancel last November. I’m literally giddy with excitement. Tomorrow morning marks vendor event #3 for November! I spent many hours of my recovery in hopeful expectation that I would be able to face this month as normal! That I’m back at vendor shows is pretty remarkable giving the outcomes that I could have had after last fall’s diagnosis and myriad of other issues our family had in the six weeks leading up to my brain surgery.

In the past couple of months, as I’ve come up on one year of crisis overload, I’ve spent quite a bit of time reflecting on last fall’s traumatic diagnosis of a brain tumor that created gait imbalance conditions, facial paralysis, and single sided deafness. I’ve reflected also on a myriad of large and small things for which to be grateful since diagnosis day.

The Season is Changing.

It’s been one year, and the sensations of trauma and fear that the tumor was growing back weren’t far from the back of my mind. Last month it was confirmed that the large cavern in my brain created by the tumor and its eviction is still healing, and I’m going to need much more time to finish healing. What was also confirmed, though, is that the tumor is not growing back at this time. Maybe next fall I’ll be able to face the “trauma anniversaries” with a little less fear and trepidation!

After my surgery last November, I spent a few months using a walker and in therapy re-learning how to be steady on my feet, and adjusting to what being single sided deaf is like. In the months leading up to my “one year trauma date”, though, I’d already been back working at vendor shows, doing online work, had driven to New England to be with family for a wedding, preparing freezer meals for our fall homeschool schedule, and had attended a couple of the Lilla Rose Regional trainings. It felt good to be doing “normal” things again, even if all conditions are not back to full normal. While they may never be, I’m grateful at least for “more normal.”

I love that my youngest daughter can play with my hair again! I missed her gentle touch and her “creations.”

To distract myself from some of the fear and trepidation of “what ifs,” of my upcoming brain MRI and neurosurgeon follow up appointments, I’ve found myself “testing” what more I can do physically that is like my “old normal”, or to try things I’ve never done before. For instance, over the summer we kayaked and rowed a boat, and i did the paddling. I was so grateful not just to find out I’m still capable and love it, but I’m grateful that I get to do it again!

September rolled around, and we were at the apple farm where there is a zip line. Realizing I’ve been granted a second chance, as a person who has never zip lined, I signed the safety waiver, harnessed up, and zip lined for the first time in my life, even though I myself wondered if that was such a good idea! Feelings of not knowing where your head and body are in space because of an impaired vestibular system might make zip lining an inappropriate activity, and even my neurosurgeon was a bit surprised that I had tried it. But I did, and had fun, and probably would even do it again.

In October, the hubby and I took a weekend away. Sleepy Bear Dunes weren’t too far away, and I’ve never climbed the sand dunes. I chose the longest one, the one we hear is most difficult, and had I not run out of water, I believe i would have conquered those hills and miles of shifting sand. Running out of water and getting dehydrated is a real cause for concern for me, so alas, I was not able to finish, going only half way to the lake, despite my will and perseverance to go further. Sometimes wisdom has to win the day. At least now I can say I have climbed sand dunes, and I’m prepared to try again in the spring with extra water bottles on board, and with stronger physical muscles and well being.

I know this season of my life is changing. My daughters are older, and while they’ve been doing vendor shows and Lilla Rose business with me, they are wanting to pursue other interests. One is graduating this year. Since I am not able to do much lifting and carrying, setting up for shows is going to be more difficult. Expect to see me with a more online presence, working with blogging and influencers. Expect to see me mentoring other women in business who are at home and working moms, who are homeschoolers, who are volunteers, who have chronic illnesses and trauma to overcome, or who are facing seasons of life changes.

I get it. All. I’m walking those seasons, trauma, and chronic illness.

It is all still Every Day Beauty and Every Day Goodness.

One of the most beautiful moments of my recovery, just days after surgery and still in the hospital, obviously not at my best and definitely at the hardest and lowest points of my life, a surprise visitor walked into my room.To say I was stunned would be an understatement.

The owner and CEO of Lilla Rose, developer of the flexi hair clip, flew from warm, sunny California to Chicago, drove 2.5 hours to my hospital room in Michigan in snow and cold to spend a few hours of an afternoon with me and my family. This was during the busiest month of his company’s selling season too. And then he drove back to Chicago to fly back to California. I will always be grateful for this sacrifice of his time and energy and resources. He talked business skills with my children over lunch, visited with my husband, and took their minds off one of the scariest times of their lives too. John Dorsey, owner/CEO of Lilla Rose, is proof of Every Day Beauty and Every Day Goodness. And maybe a little Every Day Crazy too.

Seasons change. Life is hard.

We can choose to live in fear, in failure, in staying stuck, or, we can choose overcoming in Hope and in pressing on. We can choose every day gratitude and goodness in seasonal changes and hardships. We can choose community and collaboration rather than isolation. We can choose celebration of accomplishment in reaching small goals. We can choose a different path or the other fork in the road.

I’d love for you to choose the Lilla Rose fork with me.

Until November 21st. Every Day Beauty with Lilla Rose is proof of more Every Day Goodness with Lilla Rose. There is added bonus to signing up this weekend, so if you’d like to chat with me about that benefit, leave me a comment or a message below.

This is not just a low risk opportunity.

It’s a high benefit, every day beautiful, every day good one, of which I’m grateful to be a part. I’m grateful for continued long range vision and plan with Lilla Rose.

Even as my seasons change, the road is long, the hill is steep, and the sands shift, I’m thankful for the second chances to continue moving forward.

I wonder what we’ll conquer next! I hope you’ll consider joining and growing with me!

Blessings,

Deb